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Tracks that reference I'm 20 years old and I've already wasted my entire life (Anxie's Theme):

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• Back in Oak Ridge by Cecily Renns

Lyrics:

Anxie:
i got a guitar i can let out all my sorrows to
i wonder if ill be alone again and by myself tomorrow too
you know, dont you
i play a song that no one recognize the tune of
i'm thinking if this goes on i'll just end it all already soon enough
fuck self love

then i met her!
she spoke to my self deprecating ass, said
Emma: "Darling, you're a wonderful girl
More so than you think"

Anxie:
now i don't trust in feelings or a love at first sight
there's just no way you can get head over heels after one night
cause i refuse to believe that things could turn out alright
oh this is way too much, this can't be happening in my life

i'm in a punk band, all the cool gals envy me
or so i dream everyday
but nobody acts friendly with me
i think they resent me

cause all i do is get drunk and spew nonsense
listen to dead people play music better than i ever will
dead people who no one around even knows the names of
one day i'll also be dead and forgotten like the rest

Emma: "Darling, come closer"
Anxie: she says while doing a german suplex
Emma:
"You're different than everyone else
Just dumb enough to actually do something, just like me"

Anxie:
she looked me in the eyes and saw immeasurable fright
i felt uncomfortable with all my Misery, my Plights
cause i refuse to believe that things could turn out alright
oh this is way too much, this can't be happening in my life
so then i withered away, an inseparable blight
but when im with her i feel revived, she's a hope that's too bright
still, i refuse to believe that things could turn out alright
oh this is way too much, this can't be happening in my life

my father always said to me
"be a good girl and good things will happen"
and my piece of shit mom often yelled
"youre only good for passing that bottle"
what a fucking cunt

hey, pa
thats fucking bullshit
oh oh oh
hey, ma
you were right the whole time
oh oh oh

Anxie, Emma:
Hey, pa
That's fucking bullshit
Oh oh oh
Hey, ma
You were right the whole time
Oh oh oh
Hey, pa
That's fucking bullshit
Oh oh oh
Hey, ma
You were right the whole time
Oh oh oh oh oh

Anxie:
guess i'm the fucking cunt now.