By Michael Guy Bowman bowman Bandcamp YouTube YouTube mguybowman Twitter michaelguybowman.com Other mguybowman Instagram.
Released 12/21/2012.
Duration: 4:24.

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Lyrics:

All alone amongst the crowd a voice is in my head
"Is there something I'm supposed to do?"
Everybody laughing at the jokes I've never read
Am I still a member of the crew

Tuning to the rhythm of the music in the air
Sounding out the words inside my mind
The decoration fails to make me even care
What was I supposed to find?

I'm letting go
Of the chances I had but was always gonna blow
Of the beautiful people who never said hello
Of the life I'd have lived if I knew then what I know

Every night I sit and wait like something's gonna change
I'll remember how to really smile
The waves of time against my mind leave me deranged
Can I make this worth the while?

Your moves are fly but I'm a fly upon your wall
Look in my eyes and make me real
Teach me to dance when all the world's at the ball
Give me something I can really feel

I'm letting go
Of the chances I had but was always gonna blow
Of the beautiful people who never said hello
Of the life I'd have lived if I knew then what I know
Of the need to pretend that I'm living in a show
Of the notion that I'd stay the same and never grow
Of the great desperation to move against the flow
Of all the errors I knew at the moment they were made
Of the times that I left when I really should have stayed
Of the secret inside that I'm still afraid

Artist commentary:

Michael Guy Bowman:

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